Why am I feeling so shitty? Trying to push up the positive but the limit to my loneliness has finally overcome my will power. Why am I writing this? I have no fucking clue, maybe because I have no one I feel I can really talk to. Sure there are people who are there for me and are always willing to lend an ear and some words of encouragement. But there is no one I can really connect with to help understand how I'm really feeling. I am disconnected from everyone. It's selfish I know; to think that I'm the only one who thinks like this. I'm envious of pets, they don't give a fuck about the subtleties that send me spinning into a pointless depression as I try to rationalize my future. Sorry if you read all of this, it has no meaning for you I just need to write it out for me. Check back another day for some writing with substance.